same old…same old…

it’s an hour before he departs once again to go back to work…he is already at the airport just waiting for his flight…

telephone keeps on ringing…mobile keeps on beeping…he has been trying to contact us so that he can talk to our kids before he departs…he even asked his aunt to intervene…sending me messages for me to let my kids talk to their father so that he will have some peace of mind before he leaves…

i had to haggle with both kids so that they’ll answer their father’s calls but both seem too indignant and stubborn…finally, our son relented and answered him…

he may not have known it but we placed his call on loudspeaker…i heard him say how sorry he was…how much he regretted everything he has done…how much he loved me and the kids…how he promised to try to be a better husband and father by the time he comes back…

i had to close my eyes as i gritted my teeth out of anger and frustration…hearing him say all those things to our impressionable young son while getting text messages from him saying a whole bunch of other things…still accusing me and saying other vile and nasty things…it seemed as if he was playing the role of both dr. jeckyll and mr. hyde…trying to gain sympathy from others while doing something behind their back…

just what the hell is wrong you?!?

i could have sworn that it felt as if it was deja vu once again…i have already heard the words he said countless times before…on times like this when he is about to depart…complete with all his drama and tears…trust me when i say that he could have won a bunch of oscars already…

i don’t know what the future holds…nor do i hope that this time around, he will be true to his words…only time will tell…only he himself can make the change…

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